I've actually got two blogs: a personal one and this one.

I've decided that I love you all enough to let you read/see my personal blog.

I mean, it's online, so I have nothing to hide.

Feel free to follow and check it out.

I'm not pretty and you saying it once, isn't going to change the fact that I've had the word ugly stamped on my head for sixteen years. You think just one person, saying "You are pretty," is going to change how I think? How I feel? As many times as you say it, as much as you say it. You'll never understand, and you'll never change how I view myself.

You say "stress less, relax". How can I relax? How can I stress less? You don't think I've tried? You don't think I want to feel less, to hurt less? I thought being alone scared me the most. I thought that maybe finding someone would fix things, but being alone is nothing. It's being unwanted that hurts, that scars. It's being unwanted that cuts me deeper then being alone ever will.

If someone turns away from you when you are everything they need. That's how you know. That's how you know, that you're just not good enough for them. And that's how I know...

I'm not pretty.

so here we go
another random rant about things that are pissing me off

people that steal
oh damn you, f***ers
seriously, i mean
alright
i'll tell you the story
over the last weekend,
i went to a house party at a friend's house
now, it was good party to start with
heaps of fun, lots of friend
i needed something from my bag
so i went into his room to get it
to my surprise it wasn't there

anyway long story short
it's nearly been a week since i lost my bag
and some motherpucker stole it.

TO WHOEVER STOLE IT:
alright, sure you want to be mad bitch and steal shit
i won't judge you
your life, your decisions and etc etc
but if you're going to BREAK THE FRICKING LAW
can you least have some BLOODY decency!

alright, so you want some money.
go through the bag, take the wallet and run
why do you have to steal the whole fucking bag?!
seriously, like there are things in that bag that you will never fricking need
also, i probably wouldn't have noticed whatever you took was gone
until like after the party
and pretty much by then it's too late to look.

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my bag had my retainer in there
no idea, wdf you're going to do with a secondhand retainer buddy
but if i find out who you are
...
you're going down
...
town

Surely, there is justice in the world.
Those who do good should be rewarded.
Not thrown away, like the moudly sandwich in your bag.

It makes no sense.
No sense what so ever.

There are people who do so much good.
Pick up random pieces of rubbish off the floor.
Help someone who's dropped there things.
Befriended a stranger.

Then there are people who do...not so good.
Backstab there friends.
See violence agaisnt someone and not step in.
Ignore people because of their social status.

You'd think a good person would reek the benefits of their right doing?
But no?
In our oh so fair world, people who do good are wronged.
They are cast aside and left to expire, like the carton of milk in my frigde.

When I think about this carefully, social status comes into play.
Someone popular, may be a total bitch but they will still have the most friends
And get all the boys.
While someone "unpopular", may be the nicest person ever but will still have no friends.
And no boys.

To conclude this rant.
Life sucks.
Popular girls will always win.
And I will die alone.

Alas, fine blog.
Another day gone by, another rant to tell.

Today's topic?
Stupid sayings.
Yes I know what you're thinking, what a random topic.
But I'll inform you now,
It's not random, it's totally...un-random?

In a casual conversation today,
we somehow got onto the topic of relationships.
Of course, I shared my opinion
And said something along the lines of, "I'm so over trying with boys,"
To which my friend replied, "There are plently of fish in the sea,"

Has anyone really ever thought about that saying?
Sure, we've all had our moments where we've blurted it out
In an awkward moment where a guy has confessed his love for your best friend.
But other then that? When at all, it is appropriate for conversation?

Let's break it down, and try and see what it means.

There are plently of fish in the sea

The word "plently", meaning lots of or large amounts of.
The word "fish", meaning aquatic vertebrate that lives within water.
The word "sea", meaning large quanity of water in one specific area.

So applying these new definitions, we can tranform the saying into this.

There are large amounts of aquatic vertebrate in large quanities of water.

I'm just messing with you.
To anyone that ever says (the above) and are serious
"Congratulations, you just won Douche-bag of the year.
Here's a congratulation punch in the face. Enjoy!"

Let's get down the business.
This saying really does bother me, I mean.
The countless times people have tried to reassure me using this line.
What an absolute fail.

Imagine this situation.
You just broke up with your boyfriend.
You turn to a friend for comfort.
And they reply with, "Well, there are plenty of fish in the sea,"
You look at them for a moment, and then punch that mofo in the face!
Alright, no. You wouldn't do that.
Stabbing them in the eye seems much more appropriate.

Just saying that line makes no sense.
Alright, there are plently of other boys out there?
If one doesn't want me, what are the chances of someone else wanting me?

Plently of fish in the sea?
40% of them are the same sex as you.
20% are probably too old or too young.
Another 30% are too needy,tooly or homosexual.


That leaves only 10% that may be just right.
Chances of finding that 10% tomorrow?

Priceless.